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Mirror, Mirror

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Mirror, mirror on the wall
Who's the most pathetic of them all?

Thou, O broken, art the most pathetic of all

A smile would flicker across my face


At least I am still a part of reality...

I'm so mad, I'm so upset, I cry, I scream
I hope, I wish -- but nothing will change
And who is there to blame?
Is it me? You? Pretty boy?
Ignorance is bliss
But I want to know everything
Who? What? Where? When? Why?
How did it all go wrong -- for me?
I've stood here waiting all this time
I've given my all for you and still am
But I hate it how nothing I can do will change your mind
I'm not even mad at you
I'm not capable of that, I don't think
And you should know I'd always care for you

Always

You've only glimpsed at my suffering
But you've never seen my tear-stained pillow
The deliberate faded lines on these arms
The half-smile veiling the frown
Look into my eyes -- really look
And you will see an ocean of tears
I've stand in the shower day and night
The bullets of water overtaking me
Wishing the water going down the drain was red
You haven't seen the nights I spend wide awake
I'm losing my mind
I don't know what's right or wrong anymore
What is right? What is left?
Nothing is right anymore, I have nothing left
And I guess I won't ever let you see that

But who do I have to blame but myself?
He looks so confident and sinisterly powerful
Pretty boy's got this smirk
He must be mocking me -- for all I know
I'm a nobody compared to him
He's that league and I'm just this
You know what they say about making assumptions
And I'm traveling down that same dark road again
I've got a terrible habit of screwing things up

I guess I'm pretty awful at this friend deal
I'm sorry if you are reading this, truly
I'm just so damn sick of this
Not you, or me, not us, just this
I need to go without leaving
I need to stay without being
I want you to be a part of my life so badly
And I just keep hurting myself over all of this
And it hurts so badly -- it hurts

I'm sorry for not talking to you as of late
I know I can't do that right now
I want to so badly, but my heart's not up to it
I'm going to keep staring into this mirror
Into my heart, into my mind, into my soul
There must be something wrong
There must be something else
My tears look so radiant in this light
The mirror is an honest liar

All I see is a melancholic, sadistic fool looking back at me
A poor excuse for a man, a poor excuse for being
He'll plaster on another smile for today
And see how things won't change

I play back that one moment
You and him
You and pretty boy
Walking down that hallway
And all I can helplessly do is hope...

I am wrong.
Yes, it is another vent. I've gotten to the point that just writing these up are making me sick. I'm fine, I'm good. I promise. I don't really have much to say here in regards to the poem. It speaks for itself, I suppose. Let me know what you think. I hope you enjoy it. Thanks.
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TearMeApartIDontCare's avatar
I don't think you're a poor excuse for a being...

This is amazing, as always.

Though, it makes me sad.

But the words are indeed memorizing.